I carry within me an untamed feminine mystery, once dormant and long-forgotten in time. My life drew to me a succession of direct experiences which recalled only fragments of this memory until, during a sojourn in Hellas (Greece), where on visiting the historic serpent-guarded temple of Delphi, I experienced an Elysium, a prolonged ecstatic state of communion with the sensuality in nature.
She aroused in me a profound recognition and remembrance of the act of sacred alchemy, hieros gamos, or Tantra maithuna, as the gateway to merge with the mysteries. This elation was followed by what can be described as years of silence and separation from the beauty I had once witnessed. Unable to discern the source of the affliction, I retreated from the world.
Then, during an all-night shamanic ritual, the connection returned. A deep voice came through me, together with sequences of spontaneous trembling in my spine, until they culminated in an embodiment of a dark, elemental feminine force. Shapeshifting in and out of the bodies of undulating serpents, with an explosive surge of power through my body, she revealed herself as fierce, sapient, sublime, and her venom an elixir of liberation.
When the episode subsided, I came to the realisation that I had undergone a rite of passage to arouse kundalini and reunite with my ancestral self – emanation of the Great Goddess, Primaeval Creatrix. I had received the gift of self-realisation.
In the years that followed, my ability to embody kundalini strengthened. She expressed herself through storytelling and chants to recall archaic memories and counterbalance the bonds that had drained my vital life force. She revealed the significance of the ordeals of male initiation rites to re-enact the universal myth of the Goddess and Her dying-and-rising mortal lover.
These revelations prompted me to seek confirmation in the scholarly study of ancient cultures, their sacred myths and traditions. On discovering the many synchronicities with what I had personally experienced, I became resolute to fulfil my calling.